little wave

a new life

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 13:47:09 -0700

a new life

bukowski

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 20:41:00 -0700

bukowski

Video

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 11:30:49 -0800

I am the age of a woman I know I am a blessed strange feeling that grows Small choirs in tune stay...

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 18:28:00 -0800

I am the age of a woman I know

I am a blessed strange feeling that grows

Small choirs in tune stay hidden & still

The depth of shadows, the secret, the thrill

Breaking off a bite of an apple unbitten

Yielding songs & stories & poems unwritten

So falling in knowing & seeing past why

The curl of my hips, the strength in my thigh

Some lessons await

A slowing basking sun

I climb down in haste

From tidiness undone

photo by john crawford

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 11:16:02 -0800

photo by john crawford

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…shh!

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 09:44:36 -0800

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…shh!

aimless

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 19:08:11 -0800

tucked into a river of solitude

doubt cascades around me,

shooting straight from the dense red and

flailing upwards.

in search of a finer way night shouts

a more clearly thought-out last resort,

a screeching beacon in my reflection.

a slow flow flips the currents

upside-down and so here we are:

I, bare toes burying in a wishful sinking.

you, loping up an invisible mountain.

same voices, opposite gravities

Photo

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 18:53:25 -0800

Marina Abramovic. Marina Abramovic.

Mon, 22 Oct 2012 12:53:00 -0700

An artist’s life Manifesto:

1. An artist’s conduct in his life:
– An artist should not lie to himself or others
– An artist should not steal ideas from other artists
– An artist should not compromise for themselves or in regards to the art market
– An artist should not kill other human beings
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol

2. An artist’s relation to his love life:
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist

3. An artist’s relation to the erotic:
– An artist should develop an erotic point of view on the world
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic

4. An artist’s relation to suffering:
– An artist should suffer
– From the suffering comes the best work
– Suffering brings transformation
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit

5. An artist’s relation to depression:
– An artist should not be depressed
– Depression is a disease and should be cured
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist

6. An artist’s relation to suicide:
– Suicide is a crime against life
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide

7. An artist’s relation to inspiration:
– An artist should look deep inside themselves for inspiration
– The deeper they look inside themselves, the more universal they become
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe

8. An artist’s relation to self-control:
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work

9. An artist’s relation with transparency:
– The artist should give and receive at the same time
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive

10. An artist’s relation to symbols:
– An artist creates his own symbols
– Symbols are an artist’s language
– The language must then be translated
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key

11. An artist’s relation to silence:
– An artist has to understand silence
– An artist has to create a space for silence to enter his work
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean

12. An artist’s relation to solitude:
– An artist must make time for the long periods of solitude
– Solitude is extremely important
– Away from home
– Away from the studio
– Away from family
– Away from friends
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at waterfalls
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at exploding volcanoes
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the fast running rivers
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the horizon where the ocean and sky meet
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the stars in the night sky

13. An artist’s conduct in relation to work:
– An artist should avoid going to the studio every day
– An artist should not treat his work schedule as a bank employee does
– An artist should explore life and work only when an idea comes to him in a dream or during the day as a vision that arises as a surprise
– An artist should not repeat himself
– An artist should not overproduce
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution

14. An artist’s possessions:
– Buddhist monks advise that it is best to have nine possessions in their life:
1 robe for the summer
1 robe for the winter
1 pair of shoes
1 begging bowl for food
1 mosquito net
1 prayer book
1 umbrella
1 mat to sleep on
1 pair of glasses if needed
– An artist should decide for himself the minimum personal possessions they should have
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less

15. A list of an artist’s friends:
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits

16. A list of an artist’s enemies:
– Enemies are very important
– The Dalai Lama has said that it is easy to have compassion with friends but much more difficult to have compassion with enemies
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive

17. Different death scenarios:
– An artist has to be aware of his own mortality
– For an artist, it is not only important how he lives his life but also how he dies
– An artist should look at the symbols of his work for the signs of different death scenarios
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear

18. Different funeral scenarios:
– An artist should give instructions before the funeral so that everything is done the way he wants it
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving

Photo

Sat, 29 Sep 2012 17:06:53 -0700

Corner Sessions: 2nd Installment with LIZ (i got a woman)

Tue, 21 Aug 2012 10:37:41 -0700

Corner Sessions: 2nd Installment with LIZ (i got a woman)

coming soon…

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 21:23:00 -0700

coming soon…

… you’re the answer that makes my questions...

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 09:11:45 -0700

… you’re the answer that makes my questions disappear

“long distance” at a whole new level

Tue, 31 Jul 2012 13:33:00 -0700

“long distance” at a whole new level

miss her

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 10:10:51 -0700

miss her

sparkler

Fri, 13 Jul 2012 16:50:00 -0700

sparkler

exactly.

Thu, 12 Jul 2012 11:26:40 -0700

exactly.

Photo

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 15:14:04 -0700

per-form

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 15:10:06 -0700

Is there such a fine thing as the living?

Why words grunt back and forth

Up and down pitches left

Pitches right

Coloring book full of fingers and finally breath swells

Wading through the thickened thin

And so the show pushes me

Underneath a pile of quiet.

I have layered my clothing for the weather that’s coming

Punched you in the gut so you’d remember me

A small child that leaves you love notes

Misspelled crayon performance

An intense waiting

Fragile more fragile

Crack my voice over the bowl

Egg white plenty to eat

Can we make art?

To hold and cradle for tonight and lifetimes

All to make up for a missed afternoon

You ask me do I trust you?

‘trust, thrust,’ I say – a long trail behind left broken

go in. retreat inward my brain likes playing and winning

playing to win…

Photo

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 18:29:17 -0700